Sunday, November 8, 2009

盲人和狗

一天,一个盲人带着他的导盲犬过街时,一辆大卡车失去控

制,直冲过来,盲人当场被撞死,他的导盲犬为了守卫主人,也一起惨死在车轮底下。

主人和狗一起到了天堂门前。
一个天使拦住他俩,为难地说:“对不起,现在天堂只剩下一个名额,你们两个中必须有一个去地狱。”
主人一听,连忙问:“我的狗又不知道什么是天堂,什么是地狱,能不能让我来决定谁去天堂呢?”
天使鄙视地看了这个主人一样,皱起了眉头,她想了想,说:“很抱歉,先生,每一个灵魂都是平等的,你们要通过比赛决定由谁上天堂。”
主人失望地问:“哦,什么比赛呢?”
天使说:“这个比赛很简单,就是赛跑,从这里跑到天堂的大门,谁先到达目的地,谁就可以上天堂。不过,你也别担心,因为你已经死了,所以不再是瞎子,而且灵魂的速度跟肉体无关,越单纯善良的人速度越快。”
主人想了想,同意了。

天使让主人和狗准备好,就宣布赛跑开始。她满心以为主人为了进天堂,会拼命往前奔,谁知道主人一点也不忙,慢吞吞地往前走着。更令天使吃惊的是,那条导盲犬也没有奔跑,它配合着主人的步调在旁边慢慢跟着,一步都不肯离开主人。天使恍然大悟:原来,多年来这条导盲犬已经养成了习惯,永远跟着主人行动,在主人的前方守护着他。可恶的主人,正是利用了这一点,才胸有成竹,稳操胜券,他只要在天堂门口叫他的狗停下就可以了。
天使看着这条忠心耿耿的狗,心里很难过,她大声对狗说:“你已经为主人献出了生命,现在,你这个主人不再是瞎子,你也不用领着他走路了,你快跑进天堂吧!”
可是,无论是主人还是他的狗,都像是没有听到天使的话一样,仍然慢吞吞地地往前走,好像在街上散步似的。
果然,离终点还有几步的时候,主人发出一声口令,狗听话地坐下了,天使用鄙视的眼神看着主人。
这时,主人笑了,他扭过头对天使说:“我终于把我的狗送到天堂了,我最担心的就是它根本不想上天堂,只想跟我在一起……所以我才想帮它决定,请你照顾好它。”

天使愣住了。
主人留恋地看着自己的狗,又说:“能够用比赛的方式决定真是太好了,只要我再让它往前走几步,它就可以上天堂了。不过它陪伴了我那么多年,这是我第一次可以用自己的眼睛看着它,所以我忍不住想要慢慢地走,多看它一会儿。如果可以的话,我真希望永远看着它走下去。不过天堂到了,那才是它该去的地方,请你照顾好它。”
说完这些话,主人向狗发出了前进的命令,就在狗到达终点的一刹那,主人像一片羽毛似的落向了地狱的方向。他的狗见了,急忙掉转头,追着主人狂奔。满心懊悔的天使张开翅膀追过去,想要抓住导盲犬,不过那是世界上最纯洁善良的灵魂,速度远比天堂所有的天使都快。
所以导盲犬又跟主人在一起了,即使是在地狱,导盲犬也永远守护着它的主人。
天使久久地站在那里,喃喃说道:“我一开始就错了,这两个灵魂是一体的,他们不能分开……”

最后,我要说:这个世界上,真相只有一个,可是在不同人眼中,却会看出不同的是非曲直。这是为什么呢?其实,道理很简单,因为每个人看待事物,都不可能站在绝对客观公正的立场上,而是或多或少地戴上有色眼镜,用自己的经验、好恶和道德标准来进行评判,结果就是——我们看到了假象。

"友谊的幸福之一,是知道了可以向谁倾吐秘密。"如果你收到了这封信,是因为有人在默默的祝福你,因为你也爱你身边的一些人。如果你总说太忙,不能将这封信转寄出去,老是说:"改天再寄。"你将永远都不会去做这件事的。所以,不要找借口,静心的看看这篇古老的故事,然后决定为你的朋友们作一些事,从传寄这封信开始。当你说:"你是我的好朋友"时,请认真的说出来。当你道歉时请看着对方的眼睛。

永远不要嘲笑别人的梦想。不要随便给一个人定性。说话时要慢,思想时要快。
打电话的时候请你微笑,对方一定感觉得到。

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

一念之差的女孩

****Read this from the facebook..Good sharing..enjoy :)


那是在十年前的一天,當這位老師正利用中午休息時間,在家裡睡覺時,突然間,電話鈴響了,她接過來一聽,裡面卻傳出一個陌生粗暴的聲音說:「你家的小孩偷書,現在被我們抓住了,你快來啊!」

在話筒裡還傳出一個小女孩的哭鬧聲,和旁邊人的喝叱聲。
她回頭眺望著一邊正在看電視的唯一女兒,心中立即就明白
過來。

肯定是有一位小女孩,因為偷書被售貨員抓住了,而又不肯
讓家裡人知道,所以,胡編了一個電話號碼,才踫巧打到這裡。她當然可以放下電話不理,甚至也可以斥責對方,因為這件 事,和她沒有任何關係。但自己是老師,說不定她就是自己的學生呢?

透過電話,她隱約可以設想出,那個一念之差的小女孩,一定非常驚慌害怕,正面臨著也許是人生中最可怕的境地。猶豫了片刻之後,她的腦海裡突然冒出了一個念頭,對了,
就這樣做。 於是,她問清了書店的地址之後,就趕了過去。 正如她預料的那樣,在書店裡站立著一位滿臉淚跡的小女孩 ,而旁邊的大人們,正惡狠狠的大聲斥責著。

她一下衝上去,將那個可憐的小女孩摟在懷裡,轉身對旁邊的售貨員說道:「有什麼跟我說吧,不要嚇著孩
子。」  
在售貨員不情願的嘀咕聲中,她交清了幾十元罰款,才領著 這個小女孩,走出了書店,並看清楚了那張被淚水與驚恐,弄得一塌糊塗的臉。

她笑了起來,將小女孩領到家中,好好清理了一下,什麼都
沒有問,就讓小女孩離開了,臨走時,她還特意叮囑道,如果你要看書,就到阿姨這裡來,裡面有好多書呢。 驚魂未定的小女孩,深深的看了一眼,便飛一般的跑走了,便再也沒有出現。

時間如流水匆匆而過,不知不覺間,十年的光陰,一晃而過
,她早已忘記了這件事,依舊住在這裡,過著平靜安祥的生活。 有一天的中午,門外響起了一陣敲門聲。

當她打房門後,看到了一位年輕漂亮的陌生女孩,露著滿臉的笑容,手中還捧著一大堆禮物。
「妳找誰?」
她疑惑的問道,但女孩卻激動的說出一大堆話。

好不容易,她才從那個陌生女孩的敘述中,恍然發現,原來
她就是當年偷書的那個小女孩,十年之後,已經順利從大學畢業,現在還特意來看望自己。

這個年輕女孩眼睛裡泛著淚光,輕聲說道﹕
「雖然我至今都不明白,您為什麼願意冒充我媽媽,解救了
我,
但我總覺得,這十年來,一直都想喊您一聲∼媽媽!」

老師的眼睛裡,也開始糊模起來,她有些好奇的問道﹕
「如果那天我不幫妳,會發生怎樣的結果?」

女孩的臉上,立即變得陰沉下來,輕輕搖著頭說道﹕
「我說不清楚,也許就會去做傻事,甚至是去死。」

老師的心中猛然一顫,開始暗暗慶幸。
自己當年在一念之間所做出的決定,竟然可以如此影響到一
個人的一生。

望著女孩臉上幸福的笑容,她也一起笑了起來。

****This story sounds like this world is full with caring and helpful people..
For us, maybe we won't do anything..maybe we will think that this is a case studies for the bad guy to do crime..maybe we will think that, no problem, the girl will call her real mum soon..maybe we will do the same thing to help the girl only if we are at the same place and go to check out the girl out of curiosity..
All and all, is not on how we going to react "if" we are going to get the same call again in the future..
What we need to know is, sometimes, the reason others did something wrong is just because there are no other friends or family ready to help them..Under depression, human falls into something bad..
If we really think carefully
- if this girl have a close relationship with her mum/family, will she call her mum?
- why this girl want to steal? Is it because she really can't afford it or because she want to attract the attention of her family?
This is a good story which give rooms for imagination and realization....
 

Sunday, September 20, 2009

今天离婚,你得抱我出门...

妻说,是你将我抱进家门的,要离婚了,你再将我抱出这个家门吧

 
与妻结婚的时候,我是将她抱过来的。那时我们住的是那种一家一户的平房,婚车在门前停下来的时候,一伙朋友撺纵着我,将她从车上抱下来,于是,在一片叫好声中,我抱起了她一直走到典礼的地方。那时的妻是丰盈而成熟的娇羞女孩,我是健壮快乐的新婚男人。


这是十年前的一幕

以后的日子就像是流水一样过去,要孩子,下海,经商,婚姻中的熟视无睹渐渐出现在我们之间。钱一点点地往上涨,但感情却一点点地平下去,妻在一家行政机构做公务员,每天我们同时上班,也几乎同时下班,孩子在寄宿学校上学。在别人看来,生活似乎是无懈可击的幸福。但越是这种平静的幸福,便越容易有突然变化的机率
 我有了她。当生活像水一样乏味而又无处不在,哪怕一种再简单的饮料,也会让人觉得是一种真正的享受。她就是露儿。



天气很好,我站在宽大的露台上,露儿伸了双臂,将我从后面紧紧抱住。我的心再一次被她感情包围,几乎让我无法呼吸。这是我为露儿买的房子。
 露儿对我说,像你这样的男人,是最吸引女孩子的眼球的。我忽然想起了妻,刚刚结婚的时候,她似乎说过一句,像你这样的男人,一旦成功之后,是最吸引女孩子的眼球的。想起妻的聪明,心里微微地打上了一个结,我清楚地意识到,自己对不起她。但却欲罢不能。


我推开露儿的手,说你自己看着买些家具吧,公司今天还有事。露儿分明地不高兴起来,毕竟,今天说好了要带她去买家具的。关于离婚的那个可能,已经在我的心里愈来愈大起来,原本觉得是不太可能的事情,竟然渐渐地能在心里想像成可能。


只是,我不知道如何对妻子开口,因为我知道,开口了之后必然要伤害她的。妻没有对不起我的地方,她依旧忙忙碌碌地在厨房里准备晚上的饭菜,我依旧打开电视,坐在那里,看新闻,饭菜很快上桌,吃饭,然后两个人在一起看电视,或是一个人坐在电脑前发会儿呆。想像露儿的身体,成了我自娱的方式。试着对妻说,如果我们离婚,你说会怎样?妻白了我一眼,没有说话,似乎这种生活离她很远。我无法想象,一旦我说出口时,妻的表现和想法。
 妻去公司找我时,露儿刚从我办公室里出来。公司里的人的眼光是藏不住事情的,在几乎所有人都以同情的目光和那种掩饰的语言说话的时候,妻终于感觉出了什么。她依旧对着我的所有下属以自己的身份微笑着,但我却在她来不及躲闪的一瞬间,从她的眼神中读出了一种伤害。


露儿再次对我说,离婚吧何宁,我们在一起。我点头,心里已经将这个念头扩到非说不可的地步了。妻端上最后一盘菜时,我按住了她的手。说我有件事要告诉你。妻坐下来,静静地吃着饭,我想起了她眼神中的那种伤害,此刻分明地再一次显出来。突然间觉得自己有些不忍,但事到如今,却只能说下去。咱们离婚吧,我平静地说着不平静的事。妻没有表现出那种很特别的情绪,淡淡地问我为什么。我笑,说:不,我不是开玩笑,是真的离婚。妻的态度骤然变化起来,她恨恨地摔了筷子,对我大声说,你不是人!


夜里,我们谁也没理谁,妻在小声地哭,我知道她是想知道为什么。但我却给不了她答案,因为我已经在露儿给我的感觉里无法自拔。我起草了协议给妻看,里面写明了将房子,车子,还有公司的30股权分给她。写这些东西时,心里是一直怀了对妻的歉疚的,妻愤愤地接过,撕成碎片儿,不再理我。我感觉自己的心竟然隐隐地有些疼起来,毕竟是一起生活了十年的爱人,所有的温柔都将在未来化去,就这样的慢慢的过去,到了第二天.


陪客户喝酒,半醉的我回到家中时,妻正伏在那里写着什么。我躺在床上睡去,醒来的时候,发现妻依旧坐在那里。我翻个身,再沉沉地睡去。终于闹到了非离不可的地步,妻却对我声明,她什么也不要我的,只是在离婚之前,要我答应她一个条件。妻的条件简单,便是再给她一个月的时间,因为再过一个月,孩子就过完暑假了,她不想让孩子看到父母分开的场面,而且,在这一个月里还要像以前那样生活。

我接过妻写的协议,她问我,何宁,你还记得我是怎么嫁过来的吗?蓦地,关于新婚的那些记忆涌上来,我点头,说记得。妻说,是你将我抱进来的,但是我还有个条件,就是要离婚了,你再将我抱出这个家门吧。这一来一去,都是你做主好了,只是,我要求这一个月,每天上班,你都要将我抱出去,从卧室,到大门。


我笑,说:好。我想妻是在以这种形式来告别自己的婚姻,或是还有对过去眷恋的缘故。我将妻的要求告诉了露儿,露儿笑得有些轻佻,说再怎么还是离婚,搞这么多花样做什么。她似乎对妻很不屑,这或多或少让我心里不太舒服。


一个月为限,第一天,我们的动作都很呆板。因为一旦说明之后,我们已经有很久没有这么亲密接触过了,甚至连例行的每周两次的****时间也取消了,每天都像路人一样。儿子从身后拍着小手说,爸爸搂妈妈了,爸爸搂妈妈了,叫得我有些心酸。从卧室经客厅,出房门,到大门,十几米的路程,妻在我的怀抱里,轻轻地闭着眼睛,对我说,我们就从今天开始吧,别让孩子知道。我点头,刚刚落下去的心酸再一次地浮上来。我将妻放在大门外,她去等公交,我去开车上班。


第二天,我和妻的动作都随意了许多,她轻巧地靠在我的身上,我嗅到她清新的衣香,妻确实是老了,我已有多少日子没有这么近的看过她了,光润的皮肤上,有了细细的皱纹。我怎么没发现过妻有皱纹了呢,还是自己已是多久没有注意到自己这个熟悉到骨头里的女人了呢。


第三天,妻附在我的耳边对我说,院子里的花池拆了,要小心些,别跌倒了。


第四天,在卧室里抱起妻的时候,我有种错觉,我们依旧是十分亲密的爱人,她依旧是我的宝贝,我正在用心去抱她,而所有关于露儿的想像,都变得若有若无起来。


第五天,六天,妻每次都会在我耳边说一些小细节,衣服熨好了挂在哪里,做饭时要小心不要让油溅着,我点着头,心里的那种错觉也越来越强烈起来。


我没有告诉露儿这一切。感觉到自己越来越不吃力了,似乎是锻炼的结果,我对妻说,现在抱你,不怎么吃力了。


妻在挑拣衣服,我在一边等着抱她出门。妻试了几件,都不太合适,自己叹了口气,坐在那里,说衣服都长肥了。我笑,但却只笑了一半,我蓦然间想起自己越来越不吃力了,不是我有力了,而是妻瘦了,因为她将所有的心事压在心里。那一瞬间,心里紧紧地疼起来,我伸出手去,试图去抚妻的额角。


儿子进来了,爸爸,该抱妈妈出门了。他催促着我们,似乎这么些天来,看我抱妻出门,已经成了他的一个节目。妻拉过儿子,紧紧地抱住,我转过了脸不去看,怕自己将所有的不忍转成一个后悔的理由。从卧室出发,然后经客厅,屋门,走道,我抱着妻,她的手轻巧而自然地揽在我的脖子上。我紧紧地拥着她的身体,感觉像是回到了那个新婚的日子,但妻越来越轻的身体,却常常让我忍不住想落泪。


最后一天,我抱起妻的时候,怔在那里不走。儿子上学去了,妻也怔怔地看着我说,其实,真想让你这样抱到老的。我紧紧地抱了妻,对她说,其实,我们都没有意识到,生活中就是少了这种抱你出门的亲密。


停下车子的时候,我来不及锁上车门,我怕时间的延缓会再次打消我的念头。我敲开门,露儿一脸的惺松。我对她说,对不起露儿,我不离婚了。真的不离了。露儿不相信一般看着我,伸出手来,摸着我的头,说你没发烧呀。我打开露儿的手,看着她,对她说,对不起露儿,我只有对你说对不起,我不离婚了,或许我和她以前,只是因为生活的平淡教会了我们熟视无睹,而并不是没有感情,我今天才明白。我将她抱进了家门,她给我生儿育女,就要将她抱到老,所以,只有对你说对不起。


露儿似乎才明白过来,愤怒地扇了我一耳光,关了门,大哭起来。我下楼,开车去公司。路过那家上班时必经的花店的时候,我给妻子订了一束她最喜欢的情人草,礼品店的小姐拿来卡片让我写祝语,我微笑着在上面写上:我要每天抱你出家门,一直到老。


男的都应该用心看看,每个男人到你成功时,也许都会有这种经历,学学吧,不要让自己老时后悔了,伤害最大的是孩子,如果成功后不要妻子,还不如不要成功,一家过苦日子也许也是幸福。


*****Since we're small, our mind is being shaped on guys tend to forgot the one who is supporting them at their back when they are going through hard time, but will share their happiness with the one who is newly met and have a sexy figure and younger..true or false..it depends to your experience of life..Nowadays, more and more people don't know what and how to appreciate...this is a touching story..it really depends on how you choose your life to be..make your choice wisely

Thursday, September 17, 2009

菩萨的...脚印

有一天晚上,一個人做了個夢,夢見和菩薩在一起,走在沙灘上,空中忽然閃過了他一生中的點點滴滴。他發現在每一幕裡,沙灘上都有兩對腳印,一對是他的,另一對是菩薩的…當最後一幕劃過後,他再回頭看著沙灘上的腳印,卻發現有好幾次,沙灘上卻都只有一對腳印而已!而且那些時候都正好是他生命中最低潮,最難過的時候…他很困惑的問著菩薩:"你答應我的,你說你會尋聲救苦,一旦我誓願跟隨你,你就會一直走在我身邊護持我,但是我發現在我生命中最難受痛苦的時候,沙灘上卻只有一對腳印而已啊!我不懂,為什麼在我最需要你慰助的時候,慈悲的你卻捨我而去?菩薩慈悲柔和地回答說:"我憶念你,護持你,而且我永遠不會離開你。在那些你最困難最痛苦的時候,你只看到一對腳印,因為…那是我正抱著你走… 當我們面臨考驗之際,往往會一直以為是自己孤軍奮戰,在我們最覺得孤立無援時候,靜下來看一看,你就會發現其實很多人都在旁邊陪著你!

***When we are in the hard time, we always think that we are alone, we are being isolated, we are unfortunate...the more we think that way, the more we will fall into the dead road...We should express the gratitude of having the chance to meet the challenge, and share our problems with the one we trust..at that time, you will see that you are definitely not alone but there are more and more helpful hands and ears who waiting for you :)

1+1 = 1

Master study + work = reduce of time/involvement of Tzu Chi activities
All the while, multitasking is always my target of life. I don't allow the wastage of time. I hope that i can take good care on work and Tzu Chi activities..However, lately, my tzu chi involvement getting lesser and lesser..
My test clashed with Tzu Chi activities every time... :(
I can't join Tzu Ching camp, can't join Gong Shi Ying, can't join Charity Sales.... sob.sob.sob...
Due to the reduce of Tzu Chi activities involvement, i can't graduate as Jian Xi this year...The camp for the Zhun Jian Xi clashed with my Analog Cmos class...
I really don't hope that my Tzu Chi journey stops here..Shang Ren, i will always follow you...
Please give me some time. When i have no test, i will continue..
I'll try my best to focus all and take good care of myself..


立愿文

傳承法脈心相繫 
弘揚宗門志不移
慈濟因緣會珍惜 
靜思法髓無量義
吾等弟子當謹記 
敬請 上人莫憂慮

tension..stress

My life is really complicated lately..too many things happen to us lately.
Starting from his dad admitted to hospital, his dad's company problems, his job...all and all create more and more problems and stress to him..i really very pity and sad for him...i can't help much but just staying beside without doing anything...i tried my best to share his problem,try to suggest way to solve those problems...However, my temper get worse lately...
The burden on my shoulder also getting heavier and heavier..starting from my job, my study....there are many test and assignment lately.Coping for job and master study at the same time is tiring and stressful...my whole week schedule will be monday and tuesday night - exercise, wed - sign language practice, thurs and fri - study for the test and do assignment...saturday and sunday will either be test, assignment or quiz...wow..really stressful..whenever i got test, i will become very stress and i hardly can talk to him as i need to pay full concentration on the studies...at this time, i can't share his problem anymore....
i'm really useless..whenever i got problems, he will always support me, share my problems, but now, i can't share much in return..we have been together for 6 years..this is the first time i feel that i can't help him...all the while, i think that i'm a good girl friend..i can treat his family, his friends, colleague very good..but now only i discover that i don't treat him the best i can..
sorry..sorry and sorry..i understand that you won't angry or sad...but i really hope that i can contribute and share everything with you...i'll try my best...

Monday, September 7, 2009

Class in Tzu Chi

6/9/09

This morning woke up at 6.30am, start to prepare to go to Tzu Chi for my Zhun Jian Xi class. Although can't graduate this year, think of this is the only weekend that i do not have master class, it has been a long time i didnt go for Tzu Chi activity, it is better for me to catch up again. The class today is on "fang shi- visit to those people that Tzu Chi help" and "Recycle".

The case that we go for the visit is a family of 3, living at Tmn Free School. The daddy is the breadwinner of the house but now he can't work anymore due to stroke. He has a 19 years old daughter which is mentally retarted. Since she born to this world, she can't talk properly. Her mummy is not working currently as she need to take care of her daughter. Due to there is no income, Tzu Chi provide some help monthly to this family. So what do we normally do when we visit them? During this visit, shi bo and other team mates try to talk to the daddy and i just need to play with the daughter. She is very happy when she saw us as they have no friends and it is very seldom that people visit them except Tzu Chi people. Although she can't talk, she can sing " Ke Ren Lai - Guest coming" songs. Although she can't pronounce accurately on the wordings, the rhythm that she sing is quite accurate. Both the daddy and mummy are quite negative thinking and they always quarrel. In front of us, the mummy keep on complaining on her husband. I can feel that why he think that his husband is not good or is bad to her, this is because she is looking for a way to express her feeling and her depression on taking care of her mentaly retarted daughter. Although is not good for her to complain too much on her husband, i can feel her burden of taking care of everyone in the family. Putting myself on her position, i really don't think that i able to deal with this very well. Taking care of a mentally retarted daughter is very hard especially when she is abnormal and lose temper. Besides, i will think that i will not have the courage to face the reality of having a mentally retarted daughter. She is a really brave and good mother for me. Thinking back for my problems in office or my life, the problems are actually very small. Evon, all of your problems are really small, don't ever give up and keep it on. You CAN if you think you CAN!

On the recycle session, we are taught on the types of recycle items that it is recyclable and collected by Tzu Chi. Basically, the types are plastic (PET type, non-PET type, plastic bag), Paper (paper, newspaper, cardboard), aluminium, metal, battery, clothes and glass. Besides, they have the sharing on the data of the global warming, hows the earth affected on the increase of the CO2 release to the world. More shocking news is there are research being done by the scientist that all of the ice moutain in the north pole and south pole will melt in 10 years time if we still do nothing to rescue the mother nature. It has been a long time i started on the collecting recycle item in office and my house. But this is just limited to my penang home. I really very hope that i can influence my mum and dad, and they can start to do recycle and collect recycle item at my hometown as well. Actually, it is not that hard to contribute or help this mother nature. What we can do is the 5R: Recycle, Reduce, Reuse, Rethink, Repair. This 5 words is kinda easy for everyone, however, once they need to do, is kinda hard. From now on, the things that i commit to myself is to bring the portable chopstick wherever i go for lunch or dinner or meal - to reduce the usage of the non-recycle chopstick in the hawker stall, to bring the recycle bag where ever i go - to reduce the usage of recycle bag. :)

Thanks to my colleague in Intel who always supported me on the recycle activity, they will wash the lunch pack or dinner pack ( plastic container) and put in my cube for recycle :). Besides, they will give me those aluminum tins and used paper for recycle too. Of cos it is not the confidential papers :p Thanks to my boyfriend who never complain me when i wanted to do recycle and whenever i collecting so called "rubbish" at home :) Thanks.

Just hope that everyone will start to realize that we really need to do something to help the world and improves it by contributing a small action :)

Friday, September 4, 2009

DIY - agar-agar mooncake


30-31 Aug 09

It is always my dream to do something special on handmade items and DIY stuff..it is my dream to make some DIY cards to sell, to design the paperbag for some shops, to design the wedding gift or make some wedding souvenirs..but..kinda sad that i dont have much time for that..

looking at some cupcake blog, i think of wanted to make cupcake myself..but, i think cupcake need high skill and surely need to follow a class to do those creative and cute design on the cupcake..hmm..maybe next time..

This is my first attempt on making the agar-agar mooncake..i got an idea on how to do the mooncake initially, however, from my experience mummy, she said,,everything must follow the recipe..so that everything will be correct..so..end up, mummy and i went to popular to buy a agar-agar recipe for it. Once i get home, straight away, i take out all of the ingredients for the agar-agar..following the recipe, i started to make the egg york, then the centre part of the mooncake, then the outer ring of the mooncake...it is quite time consuming to wait for the 3 layers to be ready. i need to wait for the egg york to be hard, then the 2nd layer, then the 3rd layer..From the recipe, it looks like it is easy..however, it is not as easy in the reality :p

My first attempt, failed..the coconut milk that i use is not the fresh one but the instant one, so the taste abit weird and not comfortable to eat much of it. besides the outer ring, is not directly attached together..so once i take it out, the hat drops :p hmm..talking bout the taste, still ok..cos the agar-agar wont taste as bad as those failed real mooncake...it is still edible..just that it does not looks so nice :p

Once i wake up the other morning, after coming back from the breakfast with my parents, i start my 2nd attempt for the agar-agar mooncake :p..this time i decided to do it based on my instinct and my experience..RECIPE ..NO :p
see how the things goes then..hmm..the 2nd output looks very nice...the colour, the style, the whole idea, looks so well..however, the outer ring is still not directly attached together..some of the hats dropped..hehee.. but, this time i know why..it just because my 2nd layer is too big and from the mould, there are no space for the 3rd layer to attached to each other nicely..is ok..i will get it fix next time..

I'm not going back hometown this week and i dont have the blender at my penang house, so mooncake, i will make a good one for my next trip back to hometown :p



Finally..can rest

it has been a long time i dont have a good rest..starting from my first house purchasing, renovation, furniture choosing, 20 nan sign language performance, master study, work...wow..alot alot...really very tired..

nowadays, the life getting busier and busier..3 weekend of a month have class..the work in office also get busier...is because my performance degrade? or because my responsibility getting bigger? dunno dunno...too many things that i dunno..

initially, wanna go back hometown this weekend..but..when i go home, there are too many things for me to take care of..feel abit tired to face that..end up, hide myself in penang..mum and dad..sorry..please give me a chance to rest..i will go back next weekend after my class...so sorry..